Hey there baby..should i really feel you n ?! ii havent really talked to anybody bout this soo i guess i can spill it out to ya`ll..well how can ii put this.. my summer has been goin great besides the fact that i lost my best friend.. =/, i thought things would only get better with us..buhh apparently she is more into smoken weed.. and doinq acid..and all that shit.. ya`ll just dont understand i cry not that i want her n my life..(well i do buhh you kno) .. its the fact that i dont want to have to go to a funeral anytime soon you kno? its hard too face reality that you could parcailly be the reason </3.. even though people tell me im not..its still hard..alot of shit has been goin on with loosen friends..and finden out who was "real" and just here cause they felt they needed to be.. i finnally stood up and said look if you dont wanna be here dont be here..and i guess some people just gave up..  well yea .. i have been really hangen out with the one person that understands me .. i mean i could hang out with other people..buhh she is the one i feel soo Happy around..and can be MYSELF..* KAYKAY BEAL * ..=)!!! well yea.. well last week .. umm i went too Mrytle beach with my qirl ?? .. alex.. we had soo much fun i dont kno what i would do with out her.. i guess we are close still i have no fucken clue everyone is changen ..? and loosen the people they love buhh hey .. i guess its better now then 10 years down the road right??. well me n jeremy are still together.. thank god i dont kno what i would do with out him.. alex told me not to let him be my everything..buhh its kinda hard.. ?? lol.. well me . n . kayla beal .. have been trien to go see the NOTEBOOK..buh havent had time..well we is goin too see it tmw.. me her n jeremy..=) lOl.!! .. ohh and me n my mom .. have been spending and awfully lot of time together..lol its been great.. ii miss the days were it was jusz me n her..well yeah.. umm today my nana got into tOwn.. ii spent time with them..OMG! she qot me soo much shit from hawaii.. and my ass is gunna loose the necklace.. i wanted to cry soo bad!~ buhh i didnt..?? . um yeah well tomorrow i think that me n kayla are goin over too my aunts house soo she can meet the whole Family..ahh!! ii love kayla nicole beal w. alla muh heart!!!! =)*.. yea well tonight me kayla beal ..and candice hung out like the whole night we had soo much fun!! we missed you qirl.. me her n candice we are all goin to the beach .. with my mom ii think monday or soo.. aint sure?? ... well i will letcha kno bout tmw..tmw!! lOl..

* KAYLA MARIE & KAYLA NICOLE #1 BFFE.. OH AND WE LOVE THE PIZZA GUY!! ;] * 

i lOve Jeremy..sooo much!! * 8 0 )